Frozen Fable

I cry blood my heart goes saline.. 

Somebody wrenched my soul.. 

stolen peace of mind.. 

I wither in pain .. 

The ache doesn't surface.. 

I keep mum to keep a fake face.. 

I yearn uselessly.. 

For the time to come back.. 

I know i don't own even myself.. 

If you miss then i've been numb for long.. 

I've been numb to life.. 

And this space i don't belong.. 

I try to guage.. 

I try to balance.. 

Between two worlds.. 

I try hard but i fail .. 

I lose hands down .. 

I feel tired .. I feel afraid.. 

I'm losin myself to this joust.. 

I'm slowly surrenderin to this imbalance..

 I call i fail.. Fall short of words to explain.. 

My helplessness would stay.. 

It has attained permanency.. 

I see walls of relations closin upon me.. 

I see pairs of eyes gazin upon me.. 

I feel hard to breathe.. But then i see.. 

Then i see you.. And my heart recedes to a numb feel.. 

How do i make you realize.. 

How do i put you in my shoes.. 

I know i'll break down soon.. 

I know i'll lose.. I know i'll lose...

By -- S.S.