Hmmm....

Like fire holds warmth,
I held you within me,
Akin to the sky,
Like it loves its serenity..

The sun with the sublime heat,
Bathed the heart with your name,
I compare my love,
With blood and its purity..

But with fire are blisters related,
And with sun, scorched scars,
And so with love is related,
The mournful tranquility.

But we must pay heed,
That.. With love unattended,
For months, days and weeks,
With no one to caress , none to seek,
It has ought to wither away,
With no soil to hold on to,
In an island so bleak.

Conclusions i shall not predict,
They are known to all,
To you and me,
All love meets the same end,
Traveling on the path of dismay,
Ending on the doors of uncertainties.

By S.S.

Swept to you...

From the sultry noon,
To adorning the evening moon,
The turquoise marquee, I reflect, like the blue lagoon,
A moment
A ripple,
A tide to a wave,
On the patient shores,
A wait immuned..

Me restless waters,
Bribe the winds,
Of clouds and rain,
To carry me once more, On the shore,
To my love marooned..

The breeze a teaser,
Rips me back and forth, Helpless that i am,
I tend to it,
A serfdom,
For each visit,
To seek you
At the sands,
Where you sit in gloom..

If masters angered,
See me hit the rocks, With pain i yearn,
My bloods seeps thru the froth,
But i sweep away to myself,
Hushed without a word, For i need to see you,
My love.. Soon.

I know you stare lone, When above the stars shone,
When your heart hums,
The solitary tone,
You face me those times,
Tryin to gather the lost climes,
Oh i rinsed by your feet, Come a little closer please,
My love,
For you.. Here i loom..

You walk away,
The sands bearing your mark,
Marks i'd collect again, For again i failed,
To make you see, Through the warm me, For again i failed to make you stay, My love..

I see you blurr,
I cry against the rocks,
A longing i consume, From the sultry noon,
To adorning the evening moons..

By S.S.

Few lives we know.. To whom we owe

The care and love, share high and lows

You walked along.. When I said no..

You walked along.. Keeping me close

I tell you so.. When first i saw.. First of you..

Your smile gave it away.. I took it slow..

Skipped chain of thoughts.. Lost my flow..

You gave it away.. i took it slow

It grew.. Overtime and i dint knew..

No hints or trace.. None came through

Had felt numb.. I had no clue..

Took a yes from me.. Should I sue?

how foolish i felt.. but beguiled too

you were giving it away.. now i gave for true..

8 months thence.. You made me sure..

That each day hence.. I'd look out for more

A day a step.. A journey to follow..

Your arms round me.. Leave behind a world, shallow.....

I would for sure..for life imprisonment with me..

To complete this shabby prose.. And complete me too

By - S.S.

Because of you....

You have made the lonely nights bearable.

The ragged emotions wearable.

The echo of silence dim and the chances of loosing slim. 

You are the sun in my sky.

The one to who I will never say good bye.

By - Monique E.

To miss and remember is what I have now.

But a day will come when it won't be necessary.

Patience is the path to that destination.

I am walking from my side feeling assured,

to see you there standing before me with a smile.

Taking one step at a time, with heartbeat and breathe in Rhyme.

A time to to come someday, when destiny will meet me on my way.

With it I walk towards you, with more happiness and worries counted to be few.

By J.J.

Longing for the immortality

I am just watching the silver rays of the moon spill down from the crimson skies. 

They sliver across the lifeless waters that crash dreadfully onto the scarred shore where i stand. 

Behind me a veil of misshapen palms conceal a shadowy town, 

Beyond the veil an eerie glow of town light rise through the mist 

I'm lookin for immortality that should be residing in a non existant glade 

Because the human race have chosen to push aside their true history. 

Every wheezin breath, every gulp of fresh yet rotten air,

That fill my corrupted lungs make the true image sharper, clearer. 

It brings to life what was left for dead. 

Death has called openly, mockingly. 

It led me to my end, knowingly. 

Only to sadden my heavy heart by turning me away at its doorstep.

Once upon a time, the earth tore apart and from its gaping wound hell spilled. 

The skies howled and waters rebelled. 

Wrought from the inferno of hell and set by the waters that crashed from the screamin skies, we were born. 

Demon spawn and send by satan. A curse to all. Ill fate. 

Im longing for the immortality that existed in a time when man and beast spoke the same tongue. 

When trees felt it a necessity to stretch their limbs. 

Before concrete and tar chained and tore us down. . . 

By - Monique E.

A Sorry to subsist

There are times, 

I don't do justice to my age, 

And there are some, 

when i overdo it, 

I guess thats why you came across me, 

And then came along me, 

To refine me, 

Evolve me, 

Contain me, 

I need your words to craft me, 

Your anger to alight the wrongs, 

Your embrace to smoothen the edges, 

Your love to preserve it.. 

I dont "want" i "need" u 

for the absolute me. 

I need you.. 

By - S.S.

If only you may

If you wish to share, lets sit somewhere. 

Later or now I've the time to spare.  

Let the place be peaceful or a noisy site. 

We'll have a drink or two and something to bite. 

You may start at anytime i'll listen. While looking sometimes here or there and at you often. 

Let the words reach out and reach at me on the distant shores. 

Don't worry about the time I'd have completed all my chores.

Trust me if you may say it out loud once and for all. 

Let this year's autumn see the most amazing fall. 

For you my dear friend this boney tree will never shade its leaves.

Sitting under the tree shade, enjoy the cool breeze.

 Words above were thoughts I shared them with you.

Waiting for your reply now, the whole story or just words may be few.

By - J.J.

Frozen Fable

I cry blood my heart goes saline.. 

Somebody wrenched my soul.. 

stolen peace of mind.. 

I wither in pain .. 

The ache doesn't surface.. 

I keep mum to keep a fake face.. 

I yearn uselessly.. 

For the time to come back.. 

I know i don't own even myself.. 

If you miss then i've been numb for long.. 

I've been numb to life.. 

And this space i don't belong.. 

I try to guage.. 

I try to balance.. 

Between two worlds.. 

I try hard but i fail .. 

I lose hands down .. 

I feel tired .. I feel afraid.. 

I'm losin myself to this joust.. 

I'm slowly surrenderin to this imbalance..

 I call i fail.. Fall short of words to explain.. 

My helplessness would stay.. 

It has attained permanency.. 

I see walls of relations closin upon me.. 

I see pairs of eyes gazin upon me.. 

I feel hard to breathe.. But then i see.. 

Then i see you.. And my heart recedes to a numb feel.. 

How do i make you realize.. 

How do i put you in my shoes.. 

I know i'll break down soon.. 

I know i'll lose.. I know i'll lose...

By -- S.S.

What do we do?

We give up and we give in. 

Sometimes We lose, sometimes we win. 

We have done the deeds, we have committed sin. 

But don't look out for love, but look within. 

Value your caretakers, respect your kin. 

The line between the life and death is really thin.

Think twice before you say, don't say if you never knew what it Means.

By- J.J.

World Next to you. :)

Just waitin is what we do. 

For few years to come through. 

Then there will be the time, when you'll be mine. 

Wet kisses and warm hugs. 

More sweeter than huge honey jugs. 

World of Bliss in your arms. 

Peace after as the storm calms.  

Sleeping beside you in the chilling nights, 

More pleasant than the exotic sights. 

Morning begins with your voice in my ears, 

More soothing than the any encouraging cheers. 

Your touch on my face very divine, 

More intoxicating than the oldest wine. 

So much more rises in my mind, with you in my sight I go sublime. 

By- J. J.

Tamed recluse

The solitary shadows hover above..and i retract to months back.. the loneliness slithered through the crowd.. as if picked up my smell..

From the shells of fear i had shed.. from the footprints of feelings i had left behind.. just when.. was striving hard to move ahead..

As if it were on a lookout.. and traced me through the tear trail of broken barricades..or had it sensed the air? as i was givin a way to my lonesome burden in the mist.. damp and gray..

Nonetheless.. clenched me now.. and as i wither for a save.. i know...
i know.. i should've covered my marks.. i know.. i should've cleared the slate.

By-- S.S.

Moments I wish!!

Wish there was moment like this, with me in your arms lost in a bliss.

At night beside you, I sit and watch you sleep.

My love for you is deeper than the oceans deep.

Wish to stay awake and see you asleep the whole night.

Never willing to let you go out of sight

Want to walk in sand with you on quite seashore beach.

Love I seek from you and wish nothing more.

I am often found engrossed in thoughts about you.

Always found the same love, yet I feel it's something new.

Night is the time when my mind starts to think.

Don't want to miss out on you even if my eyes need to blink.

By -- J.J.

Nothing lasts forever!!!

You may say it and think it as the universal truth.
But then again why does the earth still revolves since long ages.
Why the sun still burns since the day it was born.
Why the air we breathe still travels across the globe and takes along the clouds to reach everyone.

The only reason to it, could be an urge of existance.
The thought of self preservance, a feeling of attachment.
I may be amateur to talk over all there is, but still I believe nothing gets annihilated.
But all that happens is a transformation or conversion to something new.
That something new is either totally different or completely reverse of the previous.
It's all reliant on how you perceive.

No sunshine since you are gone.

Since you have moved away,
Eagerness to meet you increased every day.
I am patiently waiting for your return,
Lot more on love from you I wish to learn.
I watch your photo in all moments I could,
It gives me new thoughts by refreshing my mood.
I believe you as my dearest one,
Your status in my life is second to none.
I recall your words and your sweet voice,
I wish I could fly to you, if given a choice.
I can’t imagine a life with you away for so long,
Your presence by my side makes me brave and strong.
To see you in my thoughts is never enough,
I will always keep writing all this stuff.

By -- J.J.

Come with me

Tread with me the path 2 hell?

So thy soul may be lost as well

Let thy screams of pain fill the air

Forget about those who stare

Let the witch be free

before thy lives are burned beyond 2nd Degree.

We march an endless path

while the gods unleash their wrath

those who are lost now

to them I bow

But to no coward shall thy knees bend

not atleast till his life ends in torment

Let out the inner hatred!

let it out to the sacred

sharpen thy nails

to grasp onto mourning walls

Let their endless torture become yours

Let the lost bodies wash upon dead shores

pray to thy master

let his heart beat eva faster

Banish those who dont belong

dont let them stand strong

to somewhere in the fair

they should be led by their own morning star

Let thy poison lips

End my world is single eclipse

End me my pains

Let the death run through my veins!

Let the anger be released onto me

Come on, show me what thy can be

Let me show you my demons from with in

I will let thy world spin

Run with me over the Black ice

drink with me the life's price

let our cries rip the empty skies

Then under heaven's death

we watch holdin our breath

Fall to the dirt

let me show you my hurt

Your life will spill

While calls of regret echo shrill

Thy body i will bury

thy murder will be due to my fury

I've turn to be wreck

just let me drink the blood from thy neck

Let me rain you dry

Come and hear my demonic cry!

There's no peace

Not for those with this disease....

Who am I?

Who am i? One of the many questions every human mind has been
intrigued by, quizzled many a grays from that of a pauper to plato.

The very word 'i', the ninth letter of the english alphabet, the one
which carries the most substance in its discreteness. 'i' however
amour-propre it may sound, it is this 'i' which epitomizes the
probity, the wholesomeness of our entire species.

When a question mark succeeds this potent solitary 'i' the
philosophies, subjective, objective or generalized, fail to provide an
answer that would put us at ease.

Am i this physical body, entangled in threads of earthly bound
relations? or m i the the five vital forces, m i a thinking mind or m
i just an unconscious state of nescience?

The answer i have is.. I'm who can invigorate many like me and plague
the world with wreck and havoc or with substantive peace and calm. Its
i who can upturn the social stigma's or strengthen them. Its i who can
give this democracy a chance every four years or can turn into
tyranny.

With such immense quantum of power vested in me The I, why then frown
upon the pseudo vagueness that the aforesaid question  reflects.

I'm every proud parent and i'm every successful youth, i'm every crime
put to justice, i'm every satisfied nationale, i'm the sovereign, i'm
the socialist, i'm the secular, democratic republic.. Its i who
entails the essence of history in my genes to curb the future from the
same wrath.

I'm ...(name).. I'm... Year old.. I'm From...(place). I laugh, i love,
i hope, i hurt, i need, i cry and i know you do the same things too,
so we're not that different, Me and You.

Me and you which amalgamates this I. I'M US.. And..  As buddha said..
"I am the miracle"

By -- S.S.

To the Birthday Girl Sonu!!!

Birthday, it's her happy birthday
Thought to do something different in a way.
Planned to sing on the phone a birthday song.
But into the work at office i more was drawn.
Nice words delayed to come my way.
But I told to her what I wanted say.
In those simple words,  I told her, wish you a very Happy Birthday.

Patience ran out; Poor performers kicked out!!!

Been hearing it from a close friend for a month now, and seeing it in my own firm, where people get sacked, layed off, terminated from job or for that matter just disappear one fine day, un-noticed from the office crowd.Leaving you confused, curious, puzzled and whatever that keeps the earlier expressions alive.

No one knows what happened, and nor do we know what will happen tomorrow.

There were days when you knew who is gonna stay and who will be out. There were performance reviews happening every quarter, may be in half a year and then annually. Where you got to know where you stand and where you can move on to a new line of work and functions with in the company or move out to new venues. But now things have been changing like never before, the reviews may happen may not you just never know. Some person around you if fortunate sends you a good bye email announcing his last day at work. All you end up knowing is something has happened with an outcome of people disappearing as mentioned earlier.
Poor Performance is just a mask for the decline of the Company's Fortune. I have seen it in front of my eyes, where a company declared itself bankrupt over the weekend.
'Remember, remember the 15th September' this is all I could recall since that month last year.
The feeling of uncertainity grabbed all of us for the next 3 months. As I recall, I never ever bothered about the share markets in my years of academic studies, it was something which was for adults and for people who are involved in Business and all that stuff, where a person is alone responsible for his growth and decline. That month, I saw the US Markets opening with a new hope every day to see something good happening, but Wall Street did not gave any good news at all till date. Today there is some outcome to all that but still the Storm persists to blow us away on any given sunday. Many stories related to this storm were heard, read and written by whom we know as the working class of the society.
With Recession waves moving across all the different seas of industry, every ship has to lose some weight to stay floating on the unprecedented conditions in the sea level.
People may get or are getting two choices which both led to the same outcome........either your job dies at our(Company) hands or you kill it yourself proving it as a suicide.
Lets hope that this storm ends some day soon.... in the nearest future if possible. Casualties will be numerous but there could be other outcome........ with the plagued market situation.... things are uncertain and indefinate.I wish you all a best of luck to come and wish some for me..... as we are the sailors of different ships sailing the same sea, just caught in the different parts of the same storm.

Regards--JJ

The Fallen 8

Uncomfortable tie, with Ilachi chai.
This number doesn't exist, grrr..... Why airtel why?
The rides back home, the lonesome room.
Tring! Tring! Ronan and Annie’s fling.
The eyes and the wine, shivers down the spine.
The apples bite, the wholesome night.
The full moon, call up late noon.
The cheeky monkey and the innocent mind.
The microphone breeze, the incessant sneeze.
The regular burps, the licks with slurps.
The butterflies there after, the monstrous laughter.
Rhyme the words, talk like nerds.
Fantasy dive, daddy at five.
The long good nights, when the sun at sight.
Our world awaits the fallen 8.

By – S.S. & J.J.

All for a Day...

Do you forget you own birthday? Yes I do.
With the sad news running on the air,
Thoughts filled with worries, no moment without them to spare.
Just another day for me, do I care? No I don't.
With job at stake, whole night spent awake.
The soul disheartened to cut once own birthday cake.
Wishes coming through from everywhere from the ones I know.
All wish me to enjoy the day, along with the years to come nice and slow.
Every second counts more than you think.
Things could be lost if your eyes would blink.
There were days when I waited for this day.
With plans to celebrate in most brilliant way.
Now the day just comes and goes.
Where I don't know the time flows.
I wish the time could be turned back.
And smile at the gifts beautifully wrapped.
Oh I miss my family who greeted me every year.
I wish to see them again in a same cheer.
Time went by would never return.
It keeps going with very sharp turn.
Gather myself again I must stand once more.
Not fear the ocean, by the waves on the shore.

By -- J.J & S.S.

Accompany Me

Accompany me to the underworld tonight
Fill your urn to the brim with the ashes of the lost.
Awaken by ear splitting screams
Let us breathe the air of the dead
Let us walk to through the inferno
Follow the everlasting march
Let me show you the burning core of my heart
An endless night will rise, and then we will rise
The sun will set on a burning world only once more
The sun will set on us only once more
So would you accompany me tonight?

By -- Monique

Together Tonight

As we lay together
I look into your dead Eyes
I see a love that never dies
Will this last forever?
I feel your hand brush on mine
Your leg against me
Are we meant to be?
Your touch oh is so divine.

I dream of your lips
Do you want me to beg for a simple kiss?
That’s my only wish...
Please save my heart from strange eclipse.

Can you feel my desire?
It is only to, only to be loved by you.
It rages through my soul, this eternal fire.

We lay together again along endless time.

By –Monique E.

Read my Words....

Your smile...Bowled me over
It avails me...The distance of your smile to mine, Ails
Me...I wanna love you...to you I wanna surrender.

A fix of yours eyes to mine....
The world recedes to a blur...
I numb myself... Strolls by the time...I long for your
Sight to touch me soft and tender

Read my words....
They will pronounce your love....
Every syllable said, holds a picture.... true or not
The faith would decide....for now it holds good... you and me together.
By—S.S.

I need you...

Best thing which could have happened to me is you.
You bring back my colors and estrange my blues.
Be with me I need that voice...
I need you on rugged path, and those precarious terrains.
Through the trust and the faith,
Through the sun and rain… I need you.

Shall I borrow this one single life?
Oh I so want to be your wife…I need you.....
To be my man, through the dilemma and strife....

Be a friend first.. And a lover thence…
With No plastic, no pretence... I need you…
My first kiss... Till my last few breaths...

Collect me in your heart… To bind me to your threads… I need you.

By-- S.S.

Daddy's little girl.

Someday you will fly so high, up above in the blue sky.
My love for you my child, is always true and you can't deny.
I know this life has never been fair, every moment lived was in scare and despair.
But my dear girl, your daddy wants to give all the love and care.
Forgive your daddy, for I was not there.
And tears ran out of my eyes, when no moments with you i could share.
Getting mad for this and Anger on me is just.
But believe my words, without losing your faith in me and your trust.
Please come back to daddy, don't run far away.
Your concern floods my mind, it haunts me all day.
Your arrival in my life, was a sweetest marvel.
Your distance in it, will make me tremble.
I Love You my child, and so much I miss you.
On your return, all I'll do is hug you and kiss you.
Oh my dear one please don't keep me awaiting.
Parting with you hurts me worst than a bee sting.
These words are all I've to show my love for you is true.
Nothing else I've with me for it to prove.

By -- J.J.

Restless me, I long for thee...

All night long, thought about you is in my heart.
The distance from you and the silent nights tears me apart.
I Love you so much, I work even through pain.
To keep you in luxury, some wealth I must gain.
One day will come when I'll settle all the debts in life.
But before that day comes, I want you to be my wife.
Life is kind of long, so has our bond been growing strong.
There seems nothing wrong, life sings a melodious song.
Now that you know my love, how much I care.
Please don't be angry, when no time with you for me to spare.
To be with me forever is a promise you made.
It repeats in my mind and never seems to fade.
It's time now my dearest, I need to get some sleep.
My love for you is like an ocean, very vast and very deep.
I love you so much, that I miss you every day.
Your thoughts never leave me, they got a permanent stay.
I am missing you my dearest, all night and whole day.
--

Yours Truly, JJ.

A Charming Mystery

I'm sorry if it may sound harsh or rude,
But my words you must have understood.
Your discreet ways are kind of confusing,
Yet they leave me curious of thoughts so amazing.

Trying hard to know you, it's been quite a while.
But yet when I meet you, I can't help myself but smile.

Mystery of yours is yet to be revealed,
Many hearts you enslave with that charm, many hearts yet to be yield.

--By J.J.

She wounds with her eyes, she heals with her smile.

I'm what I'm but a boy next door, doing my job and completing my chores.
Life gave me many things, much more waits in its stores.

So I tell you now about her in these words, though I know I'm still an amateur.

I met her once and knew what's an attraction is.
Then I met her and experienced what does Love really means.
I kept meeting many and many in my past.
Each one of them gave me something that last.
One of them helped me get over my past.

One showed friendship how it really goes.
One helped me stand against all my foes.
All these years I met and saw magnificent & charming beings.
She is in every part of my life, in flight like wings.

I meet her every day with different faces.
And she surprises me with all her elegance and graces.
I don't know myself but I see her in my every situation.
She is none other than my opposite sex, she is a woman.

By—J.J.

Lost you and Found you my friend

Met her in the middle of the night,
When I was lost in some internet chat site.
She soon became a close pal of mine,
With her with me everything became fine.
Years went by; she brought me totally back to life,
Don't know why, all of a sudden she disappeared in some strife.
I kept waiting for her to return someday,
I wanted to thank her in every possible way.
Then came a time when I heard her voice again,
To my surprise she was a stuck in some pain.
I tried so hard I tried my best,
No attempts succeeded to put her mind to rest.
She disappeared again I don’t know where,
I took all my chances to search here and there.
Now I was bonded to my career which was on a veer.
No time left with me to know of her but to be unsure.
I waited again for quite a while.
All I wanted to see her face with a smile.

Now that I saw her face today again,
Worries about her health went down through drain.

By -- J.J.

An Orkut Testimonial for my Good Friend Dipu.... But She doesn't want it.

She writes testimonials nice and long,
Her feelings seem so right and so strong
She seems to share with me a nice and close bond
There are no words needed at times when she needs to respond.
Just a smile from your face says it all.
A friend in you is I see whenever I call.
Things keep changing but our friendship will not change.

And the years will come by and things may no longer be strange.
There have been times when we were separated.
Then again came times when we got liberated.
Whatever happened to our friendship, it has always been inflated.
Keeping you in my mind I live my life one day at a time.
Being a friend to you will never be a crime.
We met very long ago in a distant virtual place.
There never came a time when we ever came face to face.
But now I don’t know why I am writing this for you acting like a nutcase.
And I know at the back of my mind, I will never have anything to chase.
She is stubborn girl you may never ever again want to meet.
After a day you will hear yourself saying she so sweet.
She gets angry soon and has a very bad temper.
But when she is in mood, all you want to do to her is pamper.
She claims to be selfish with acts and words.
But when you see her close, everything bad of hers is blurred.
Punctual you may not find any time anyways, but the time spent with her becomes best of your days.
She says she is lazy and always talks so boring,
But if you listen to her words, you will never end up snoring.
Many things about her are makes her so fascinating,
You may only know them if you are not interrogating.

By -- J.J.

Romantic Rendezvous

This city they say witnesess the most romantic evenings...
Indeed I agree to the point A...
For with the sweet nothings of nature romance to the solemn Air...
For they say you need a lover, they say you need him by your side...
I say the stars seem enough with the skies open wide...
With the velvet winds ready to be romanticized...
I close my eyes and see the sounds...
A Lawn mower and children’s stride...
The rumble of cars, the onions just fried...
I open my eyes and I breathe the greens and the blues...
And I keep my personal grays aside...
They say this city witnesses the most romantic evenings...
Indeed I agree to the point A...

By -- S.S.

She's the catcher of my eye

Butterflies in her tummy, every time when she thinks of me.
The Sparkle in her eye, every time she looks at the violet sky, shimmering.
With a Smile on her face, when she says you fill up my heart's space.
You know she is ready, when she yells lets hit the road my teddy.
She loves me like crazy; she keeps her cool even when I'm busy.
She says the weather is so chilly; I want to hold you so close my silly.
My heart listens to her loud and clear, even though she is no where here.
Then I feel her nearest, when she says I love you my dearest.

By – J.J.

If Only.....

If only I could smell you once,
I'll remember your fragrance for life,
All I would've to do would be to close my eyes,
Dearest, to have you besides.

If only I can run my fingers thru your hair and make you sleep, in my arms
And kiss your forehead and your cheek,
To see you smile in your dream... Dearest,

If only I could have you here,
Just the two of us,
If only I could hold your hands,
I'd feel you till last I breathe,
Yes till eternity,
This longing doesn't seem to have an end,
A purpose though well defined...
Dearest, indeed we're destined,
But, if only the circumstances don't grow fond of us,
I want my love to realize, If only I could smell you once, I'll remember your fragrance for life…

By—S.S.

Finding you

A single whisper, calling me closer.
A strong feeling that this heart knows her.
But she can't be seen, it is so dark.
And I lose my position, as I fail to find my mark.
Through the dungeons I follow her voice.
Unlocking each n every door, without any choice.
I hear a sound of something like creature from the wild.
Sound seems like of a mother looking for her child.
I run ahead with a storm in my head.
I must find my love, before I become the dead.
I see brightness ahead and I walk into that light.
Waking up in my bed, to find my love in sleep holding me close and tight.

By- - J.J.

Us… together….

Falling tear, no sound I could hear.
Holding you close, no need to fear.
As we are with each other, things will clear.
Never will let you go away, Cuz you are my dear.
No matter how, no matter where, just remember never let fall your tear.
When we are together, problems become so simple and mere.
There will be another time of joy, there will be another year.

By – J.J.

Moments and You

Can I stop the time and be in this moment forever.
And stay this way to enjoy and savor.
Moments with you are never forgotten.
Times more like this are more beautiful than autumn.
Cherish these moments is my goal.
Every time you smile you enrich my soul.
When I close my eyes I get see you.
When I open them again wish I'd be with you.
Holding you in my arms very tightly.
Forgetting the world around us, I feel mighty.
But the distance between us keep us apart.
I keep coming to you, I see you as the only start.

By – J.J.

An Ounce of Me

Down the memory lane,
Trodding past the childhood games,
I see a reflection of me,
Of how innocence in the eyes be framed,
Reflections that reverberate the self,
The glee with the mere thought of Santa and his elves.

Lanes traversed,
The mirror still reflects me,
They say it right,
It does speak for itself,
The eyes more docile,
The smile more submissive,
Real me? Only an ounce of it left.

I stare,
I search,
A superficial being it gives back,
A surprised hour glass,
Surprised , how fast slipped the sand.

I place my palms,
I'm taken aback,
How the lines defeated me,

I place my palms,
To save that ounce,
But the frozen mirror doesn't help.

With a tacit thought,
A Forced smiled,
I recapitulate,
With another deep breath,
One last try,
Of many chances i let go by,
One last try ,
For that little me,
For that ounce thats left.

By - S.S.

Everything seems so less and less. :| ..But She seems to put a smile on my Face :)

I really got no clue why I wrote this?
Don't know where am heading, Road seems to be endless.
It looks really dark ahead, making my mind kinda thoughtless.

I feel poor, when I'm taxed making me a bit cashless.
I feel so lone, that my mind has become hopeless.
I feel like been slowed down and losing my own pace.
Thoughts vanish from my mind and appear gone without a trace.
Nothing left to ponder; things around me look so lifeless.
I really don't seem to understand what’s my case.
Things around me are quite tricky that I can't tell what is this place.
I get a call saying come to office where we will touch the base.
They for some reason treat me nice when I know I’m not their reigning ace. I'm confused and puzzled what will happen, what I've to face.
I think these are one of those, they call mind troubling days.
Everything seems so less and night have become sleepless.

By - J.J.

Little Miss says;
Answer... I haven’t got, Answerable one you are not.
You’re not the lone loner.
There are many going through the same trauma.
It’s not bad as it seems, it’s just some calm that you need.
Wish I was there, to talk and share
But for now, Distance we keep, all I know.
From the age I’ve run, my friend, my confidante, my precious mate.
Keep your patience; it’s all worked out up there.
It’s a phase, just a span, one mere, it’s just a phase.
It’ll pass in no time; your lines would again rhyme.
For such a beautiful being like you.
Things can’t be that bad for long.
The closing of eyes the deep breathes, with the sullen eyes you see the world take shape.
I know it all seems fake, Dull, Like your smile has been raped.
Still my love, I request you to save yourself.
From this nasty quest, Treasure your innocence, feel His presence.
Jz… The tables will turn, along with the moons and the suns.
Jz… It’ll be alright, all in its place.
So next time, when you hit the sack, please relax.
As I said teddy, It’s a phase, one mere just a phase.
The next morning. Will have a new dawn and a new hue.
And you never know.. May be all new world and all new you. :)

By - S.S.

I shouldn’t be Alive!

I shouldn’t be alive! You might have heard this several times from the people who have come across mind boggling incidents in their lives. They might have seen things and had a close encounter with the fact called death. I have recently joined that list of people who say ‘I shouldn’t be alive.’
24th January 2009 a day which was suppose to be a day of enjoyment and excitement turned out to be a day of extreme pain and tension for me and my parents. The day began with me unable to sleep properly spending almost the whole night sleepless on my bed. I finally got some sleep in the morning for few hours, when I woke up I was already late and behind my schedule to get ready and reach office in time. My ‘Aaaee’ (mother) was not feeling well which I didn’t realize till today when she told me while talking about that day.
I managed to get ready as early as possible and hurry up to the car with a hide n seek biscuit in my mouth to the car. For a change I cleaned up the dusty car of mine, which is not my choice when I am late to reach some place. I drove off towards my destination with a relaxed mood and calm mind. Once I entered the Mumbai city, I came across a traffic jam which was at a junction where it was least expected. I somehow managed to make way out of it sooner than expected and reached the eastern express highway. Everything looked OK till I reached the point of no return on the road. I was behind a speeding car on the 1st lane of the highway which was speeding away with an ease, I did not bother to speed up and follow it for some reason. The speed was a regular 80 km/hr something common for me for past 5 years of my driving time. Suddenly the car slowed and took a sharp lane change, exposing me to a spot dug up for some unknown reason, fenced with 4 bamboo sticks and small 2 x 1 feet of a board saying ‘work in progress’. I had to react quickly to avoid hitting the bamboo sticks and people working on the divider at the spot. So I tried the same thing the car ahead of me did, slowing down and changing the lane. But it wasn’t supposed to happen. While slowing down and turning the car left, it was on those yellow paint strips which you might be aware been seen on the highway since last year’s monsoon.

The front right tire of the car came off the alloy wheel rim to the internal side of the car. This caused the front wheels to wobble and go towards the 1st lane. What happened next could not be imagined or done again by me in the future. I manage to cross the bamboo fence and the dug site, and ram the car front right side first on the divider of the highway. This first hit tossed the car in the air almost a foot followed by the second hit head on front side of the car with the divider again. The car was still in the air and took a horizontal 360 degree turn in mid air landing the car in the direction opposite to where I was going.

After the car settled on the ground, I saw few men running towards the car to my rescue. They rushed to open the door which was locked from the inside. I managed to take off the seat belts which kept me on the seat safely in the car. I picked up my cell phone from the floor mat which was earlier on the seat came out of the car with no pain or anything. After coming out of the car the men around me asked me, am I alright, to which I responded with as positive. I quickly took out the mobile phone from my pocket to call up my dad. I spoke with him told him about the incident and then called up my manager to inform her about the same. As I finished with the calls I felt relaxed and at the same time while making the calls, the bright sunlight in front of me was fading to darker yellow gold shades of the color, I felt my head spinning. So I thought of sitting down on the road resting my back against the divider to comfort myself. I just didn’t realize when I passed out to experience the most peaceful sleep ever of my life. All that I remember is my eyes closing with no worries on my mind on a hot tar road under the blazing afternoon sun at 12.30 in the middle of highway next to my wrecked car.

But all this short lived as people noticed me unconscious and rushed back at me to wake me up and offer some water to ease me. After having gulping down some water, I was back to normality. I crossed the road and went to the left side of the road, where I saw police accompanied by a towing truck coming to the spot. They called me back to the car, checked my status, and asked what happened, anyone else along with me in the car. They asked me to take the photos of the car before they could tow it to the side of the road for the reference of the insurance claim.

I took the snaps and they moved the car to the side of the road. They asked me to report the accident to avoid problems in the post accident formalities. Then appeared two gentlemen from my dad’s office, who checked with me and the police about the further actions, are to be taken. Then we three went to the nearest police station to report the accident. While going to the police station I called up a friend who was very much familiar to deal with the situation I was into. I called up Rahul my childhood buddy to the rescue; fortunately he had just arrived home from some work. He came and we finished off the formalities at the police station. My dad had also arrived by then. Dad’s associates had left as he had arrived. So it was my dad, Rahul and I left further to complete the next task of getting the vehicle towed away to the garage. We reached back the spot and called up the towing service. The towing van came in 20 minutes, I handed over the papers and informed dad that am leaving for office.

Rahul and I left towards the office and dad took a towing van to the garage. Rahul dropped off at a point nearest to his home and I continued further in spine rattling rickshaw towards the office. When I reached the office the news of my accident was already around the place. When shown the photos taken of the car wreck, only one question was asked. How are you alive? Though photos were not a big deal, even Rahul asked me the same thing when he saw the car before it got towed. The reason to commute to office even after such a bad accident was to keep my mom off the tension and worries which I created out of the accident. I have been trying hard to keep my parents out of worries from my side, but nothing works. I already had a bike accident on 1st January 2009, the very day of the year, which left me with 5 stitches on my chin. Just that wound had healed and this accident got added up. Dad suggested after the first accident take the car so that I’d be safe, but after this I have nothing left to commute to office. Motorcycle is convenient in traffic and car is efficient in rains. Luckily it is winter when all this had happened.
There was employee get together party on that day in the evening. After reaching office and giving the account of accident to my colleagues, I was advised to take a nap before leaving for the program. Going there was only to avoid reaching home early and face my parents. So I took a nap in the office in a corner well hidden from the people working around. Then got up to leave to the hotel where it was been arranged. Fortunately there were internal arrangements of car to reach the place and further arrangements from office to drop the people at home after party. I enjoyed the party with colleagues getting high with the alcohol and dancing wild after that.

Party was great but I never knew there were so many drunkards working around me in the office, no offense by the number people who were consuming alcohol was beyond my expectations. Finally it all ended around 12 midnight. The day which is unforgotten ended with me reaching home safely in a cab arranged by the office at home at 2 a.m. next morning. If it wasn’t for my friends and office buddies I wouldn’t have got through the day and be in position to write all this down and express it.
Only regret I have out of all this is that, my parents are suffering more than what I have suffered in the accident.
I am really sorry to put them in this situation and also my beloved car which is damaged badly.

Accident Details:
Location: Eastern Express Highway, Near Best Bus Stop for Bhandup.
Journey – Airoli, Navi Mumbai – Powai, Mumbai.
Distance: 13.5 Kms.
Date / Time: 23rd January 2009 /12.15 p.m.

From being crazy to reach the Madness

My love, haven’t you wanted to be with.
Dear, my love haven't you long to be free.
I can't keep pretend that I don't even know you.
At sweet nights you are my own, take my hand we are leaving here tonight.
There is no need to tell anyone, They only hold us down.
So by the morning light, we'll have to be away to anywhere.
When love is more than just your name.
I've dreamed of a place for you and me, no one knows who we are there.
All I want is to give my life, to you only you.
I've dreamed so long, I can't dream anymore.
Let’s run away, I'll take care.
When love is more than just your name.
We are leaving here tonight.
There is no need to tell anyone, They only hold us down.
So by the morning light, we'll be half way to anywhere.
When no one need a reason.
Forget this life come with me, don't look back you are safe now.
Unlock your heart; drop your guard, no one left to stop you now.

So J I'm going to madness or I just reached it?
Take care my winning card, my J, the Joker.

By Laura.

Confession from a Betrayed Mind.

I hold my breath as this life start to take its toll.
I had behind the smile and my good life as they told.
But oh god I fell am losing the faith in things I ever cheeve in.
I have awakened now 2 find me in the shadow that I always created. It
belong to you, am lost in you, so just take me away from me.
I am crawling through this life as this evil flying through my vain.
I am looking through myself but my own have been changed.
I can’t go on like this with what I’ve become.
please I beg you to take me away from me.
Lost in the dying world I reach and more
I just feel like I was not even in the world before it.
so am I thankful for waking up?
Now am fighting to a chance to meet you again.
You were never strong enough, you were never good enough.
you never been seen enough, not enough for me.
You turned me to fear, you make me easy to erase.
lost my confidence, lost my reasons.
still guessing why was I mistaken?

I live in dark for you, you live to be proud through me
How could you, am scared even to start thinking about your promises and turn them to lies.
Am sure you are still standing near that door...watching me...want to see from me a one mistake to blame me for all the things.
But believe me am seeing, am feeling, just like a scary something standing there who wants to wipe me away.
you come from far far away to break just shatter me into the pieces.
This time you need to believe in yourself, that you actually could do some things that scare me.
Mistakes, sins, shame, denying I drink it all in one glass handed by you.
And I'll keep drinking up until you see how much u can’t be of something use not less.


Do you know what's more funny? I still love you
Do you know why? Cuz your lies make me happy for some days.
Don’t ask me do I love you? you know that I do.
You know am a scared Cuz I won’t forgive and ever forget.

So J.(me) words never satisfy me enough....

By Laura.

(she told me all this, when I tried to console her, she was in love with this guy, who loved her to avenge some thing, she never told me what was the reason. Am still waiting to hear more from her.)

Had a Long Day !!!!

In a peace called sleep, I go again.
The day was tiring, my back is in pain.
World is huge, many things to gain.
Let me do my best, before I become insane.
People keep calling me now and then;
All I try to find is a friend in them.
But most found is meaningless attitude,
Many of them lack to give a token of gratitude.
So I keep going from places to places,
Trying my luck with faces and more faces.
But the night comes again as I get tired,
Calling me back to place of my desire.
My bed awaits my presence,
My room hates my absence.
Now don't come and tell me,
What you read doesn't make any sense.
This is something I wrote at night,
A time later after a long day's fight.
Now I end it here, as there is no time left to spare.
Then I think again before hitting the sack,
I know there is nothing to see if I turn back.

By J.J.

An Evening Spent at Movie Shoot

Dated: 18th January 2009
Location: Worli, Mumbai

A song shoot was in progress at Audi Indian Showroom in Mumbai at location near Worli. We reached the scene of the shoot at 9.00 p.m. on a Sunday 18th Jan 2008. Mangesh, Manoj and me came to the shoot scene on our motorcycles. As we came close the location was full of lights and crowded. We parked our bikes at a distance so that no one bothers us or our respective bikes mistaking us for bystanders. The location was crowded with young college going girls and guys screaming, yelling and taking every effort for the actors on the set to give them a glance. As we reached there we were welcomed by Sameer (Pong) our dearest dude from Ruia Naka group. He is the representative of the production company under which the movie is been created. Then we saw Satish another good friend from Ruia Naka running around managing the location, he is from the production team who is supporting the needs at the shoot. Satish was the one who had managed to get the location for the shoot and was responsible for the security and all other things.

Now as I looked into the showroom, I saw the most awesome cars in the world been parked in there. The Audi A4 (Red), A7 (Black), A8 (Black), R8 (Black) and Q7 SUV (Black) were parked in the showroom premises. The cars had a memorizing effect on the crew members. Then there were the Movie Actors, choreographers, Director, Line Producer, Assistants and Production crew around there. The crowd only came in for the only one person…. And that was John Abraham (model actor). Then there were other people Genelia (lead actress in the movie), David Dhawan (Director), and Bosco (Choreographer).

As the showroom is next to the road, every car with curiosity slowed down and people in them were baffled, amazed and later excited to see John in the showroom. Now you know why the young girls were queued up screaming on the lane across the showroom and waving. I later heard that a doctor was required as Mr. Abraham was reported sick and was exhausted due to exertion that day. He was the ambassador was for the Mumbai Marathon which happened the same morning. Satish was calling up places to get a General Physician for John…. He (Satish) was very concerned about the degree of the doctor asking only physicians with MBBS were required. Poor fellow finally got a doctor to come for the whole shift, who arrived with his daughter and son-in-law at the location. Now that was funny, a general physician dad accompanied by an Eye Specialist daughter along with a Neuro Surgeon Son-in-law, Satish surprised with in the chaos on the set, who is who and is here for what? Then there were Cops who were leading the security of the premises doing crowd and traffic control on the street.
A surprise visit of Sohail Khan (Actor) was there in an Audi Q7 on the road. Who entered the showroom and met someone and left the scene within half an hour. Now I move on to a special character present on the set, a girl totally crazy about John, who was reported to have been at the scene from the beginning of the shoot. A young girl in her teenage wearing a blue and white strip T-shirt and denim jeans with a black handbag was seen moving around the location taking every opportunity to have a good look at Mr. Abraham. Before I arrived at the location the girl was reported to Scream, Cry and then faint after seeing the actor at the location.
I got an opportunity to enter the Showroom and take a nice close look at the cars which were my curiosity when I reached the spot. When Sameer introduced me in to the Security guard he stated that he thought me to be someone from Media who was out there for some interview. They were ready to pick me up and throw me off the location if had been approaching any of the actors or the director. When asked why they thought of me that way, they said it was my attire. Now I am confused with my own attire. I was wearing a grey t-shirt, a sleeveless jacket and a camel green cargo pant with a matching camel green foot wear and a backpack. Till date I have been thought of by people at the first look as a guy going for trek, a Terrorist (this was commented by a 3 star Police Inspector at a Naka bandi Marine Drive on 31st December) matching the attire of the 26/11 attackers in Mumbai, an aspiring contestant from MTV Roadies and now some Reporter from Media. Well I am confused with these comments now. Next time I am going get dressed formally. Let’s see what they got to say at my dressing then.

Showroom was clean and every car was something for admiration. There I met 2 people who were covering the making of the film on a still photography and handy cam, who were curious about the cars just like me. We had a small chat about the Car been used in the Transporter movies in Hollywood and were used to its full capacity. We spoke on the Audi R8 coupe which was out there, the car is speed demon with a Top speed 301 km/hr on a V8 Engine (awesome). Then there was the Audi A7 next to it, the genuinely luxurious sedan of the market.

Finally came the dinner time for the crew members, Lights got dimmed and crowd got thin. All of the sudden Mr. Abraham decided to come out of the showroom to wave hands at the crowd. Which resulted in a chaos which people rushing towards the actor to get autographs, photographs etc… in short a piece of him. Now the teenage girl I described above saw it as her last opportunity and rushed into the crowd to meet the actor, who was rushed into the showroom due to the chaos, Mr. Abraham showed the courtesy to his beloved greatest fan of the day to give her the autograph, take a photograph and give a hug to the girl who stood some 4 inches below his shoulders. Girl left the actor in total excitement and was not seen for some minutes.

During the dinner cops were showing full on attitude over the food and eating stuff. Satish in charge of taking care of the cops present was cursing and swearing the backgrounds with their attitudes. But one cannot neglect them when the work is at stake. Sameer and Mangesh had to leave for another party to attend of close friend who had movie music release last week.
Now the mates on the sets and I thought this should calm down the girl as her greatest wish for the day was granted finally. But to our amusement the girl was still lurking around the premises for more. A question came to my mind, what more is she waiting for, she almost had the best of the day from all the girls who had gathered or waited for the actor. The internal security of the crew was amazed to see the girl still around the location when it was half past midnight. The head of the security was baffled by the girl’s dedication towards the movie star. He asked me what with her, I suggested lets go and have a small talk with the girl, she may leave after that.
So security head and I approached the girl to question her. Where is she from? She replied just few buildings ahead from the showroom. Are her parents knew her whereabouts? She replied yes. Now as it was quite late we asked her has she eaten anything, she replied, she will later. Finally are you Ok? I asked her, she smiled back and said yes. Now during this conversation, she did not keep her eyes on us at all but only to answer our queries. I told her that she had the best of it today and the shoot will finish shortly, please go home and rest now. When I said about resting, that was due my own legs which were having a hard time standing around the location. She said she is fine and looked beyond us at the location. We left the kid alone and came back to scene. When the shot area was been setup we saw the girl leaving the location towards her home. Finally I said to the guy next to me she has left. The last scene of the day was to be shot outside the showroom on the footpath. Now the trouble was if the actors stayed for long outside the showroom, it would be chaos again. But things were under control. Last scene was John and genelia come on a cycle to the showroom as per the story and see the Security guard sleeping at the gate. There were 2 takes for the same and it was pack up! Shoot location was getting cleared quickly with people hurrying up to leave for home. Cops were then busy getting Chai-pani for the services rendered for the shoot.
Next shoot was scheduled on Monday morning, but due to the lead actor exhausted it was cancelled, with next shoot scheduled on Tuesday. About me being there was just for to watch the shoot and enjoy the shoot, I have never been more excited about the actors and actresses on the set but more about the things happening on the set, how a frame is set and how lights are arranged to get the perfect ambience for the scene. This one the film shoots I have attended and seen in Mumbai. The work done out there is hard and needs a lot of patience and guts to through the day. I can only dream to be in this line of work, where excitement and struggle go together in work. I’ll try and manage to be there for more spoils of my journeys to share with you. Let’s see if I could.

• That’s Mangesh and Manoj - both were in the Mumbai Marathon


• Crowded street I spoke about.


• And the shooting crew at work

By -- J.J.