Sunday, January 25, 2009

Confession from a Betrayed Mind.



I hold my breath as this life start to take its toll.
I had behind the smile and my good life as they told.
But oh god I fell am losing the faith in things I ever cheeve in.
I have awakened now 2 find me in the shadow that I always created. It
belong to you, am lost in you, so just take me away from me.
I am crawling through this life as this evil flying through my vain.
I am looking through myself but my own have been changed.
I can’t go on like this with what I’ve become.
please I beg you to take me away from me.
Lost in the dying world I reach and more
I just feel like I was not even in the world before it.
so am I thankful for waking up?
Now am fighting to a chance to meet you again.
You were never strong enough, you were never good enough.
you never been seen enough, not enough for me.
You turned me to fear, you make me easy to erase.
lost my confidence, lost my reasons.
still guessing why was I mistaken?

I live in dark for you, you live to be proud through me
How could you, am scared even to start thinking about your promises and turn them to lies.
Am sure you are still standing near that door...watching me...want to see from me a one mistake to blame me for all the things.
But believe me am seeing, am feeling, just like a scary something standing there who wants to wipe me away.
you come from far far away to break just shatter me into the pieces.
This time you need to believe in yourself, that you actually could do some things that scare me.
Mistakes, sins, shame, denying I drink it all in one glass handed by you.
And I'll keep drinking up until you see how much u can’t be of something use not less.


Do you know what's more funny? I still love you
Do you know why? Cuz your lies make me happy for some days.
Don’t ask me do I love you? you know that I do.
You know am a scared Cuz I won’t forgive and ever forget.

So J.(me) words never satisfy me enough....

By Laura.


(she told me all this, when I tried to console her, she was in love with this guy, who loved her to avenge some thing, she never told me what was the reason. Am still waiting to hear more from her.)
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